So another year has come and gone. I feel like 2018 was VERY long and I can’t help but sit here and reflect on the year, the people I have spent time with or without and about myself.
A lot has changed for me these last few years and this year was no exception. I’ve definitely lost friends and as I reflect back on those friendships I have come to realize that I’m happy about that. Sure I loved them and thought we would be friends much longer but I’ve also realized that I have been in some toxic relationships. So I say thank you for the things you’ve taught me but I’m done with that part of my life. I have many more chapters to get through and like Ariana Grande says, “thank u, next”.
I’m ready for 2019 and there are so many things I want to do, to become. Maybe this will sound selfish but I need to make more of this upcoming year about me. I need to focus on my happiness and stop wondering if I am good enough for other people. I need to start questioning whether or not they are good enough for me. Some people only see the flaws in me but I continuously try so hard to see past the flaws in them. Everyone has flaws but that is not a reason to think you are better than them.
I’m happy about a lot of things 2018 brought. For one, my future sister-in-law. We went to the same high school and I always struggled to see her with my bother. I learned a lot abut her this year and we have spent a lot of time together. There will be things we don’t agree on in the future and that is fine. The past is the past and we need to let it go. I’ve seen her grow and flourish as she has gotten out from under of her parents’ thumb and I couldn’t be more proud of her. She’s my sister now and for that I’m grateful.
I feel like I’m continuously getting closer to one of my best friends. She just had her second baby and even after the first one, I wondered where I would stand. Our friendship has gone through a lot but I wouldn’t change her for the world. We’ve learned so much together and have done some really stupid things but we are forever changing. I’m grateful we are still growing together and though she may be a mama now, I absolutely love her and her babies. She’s gone through so much to get to this point and I am beyond proud of her. Even if our lives are changing, I still feel like she has my back if I need her. I am so proud of her and everything she is doing. She is an amazing mother and an even better friend. I’m looking forward to another year with new adventures together and I can’t thank her enough for being in my life.
I sat down to write this post with the intention of talking about resolutions and this just came out of me! So here are some of my resolutions this year.
Stop treating everything like a competition. It isn’t one and you will continuously be disappointed.
Stop comparing yourself to other people. It is only hurting you.
Try new things, even if it is something small like a new recipe.
Obviously there is the be happier with my body one. I don’t just mean losing weight, though I wouldn’t mind that. But mostly being healthier. Getting in more exercise because it is good for me.
There are so many more but those are the main ones.
There are more people and experiences I would want to talk about but for now I’ll leave it there. This is our year and we have to make the best of it.
Happy New Year! What are you resolutions?