Ahhh! I’m so excited to FINALLY share our big news!! Nora’s going to be a big sister at the end of November!!
Yes, yes, I know we’re crazy. That makes them 12 months, if not less, apart. I was so conflicted if I wanted to have two babies or give Nora all the attention for a little awhile so we left it up to fate. And well, it happened quicker than we had imagined.
The day I took a pregnancy test, even though I knew I was pregnant, I was devastated. I cried a lot, thinking it was too soon and the mommy guilt was strong. I cried at the thought of my first born not having my attention 24/7, at the thought of missing her milestones because I’ll be too busy paying attention to the new baby, at how we were going to afford it, and at how I was going to survive it all.
As the time has progressed I realize that as moms we can do anything! But there are still worries that creep in. How will Nora react? We are turning her world upside down and she’s going to be too little to even understand what’s happening. What will I do if she’s not walking yet and I’m huge at 8 months pregnant? What will I do if she is walking when the new baby comes? What if she needs me and I can’t be there for her? So many questions that I know no one can answer.
I am trying to spend as much time with her as I can now, giving her my attention 100% but it was so hard at the beginning when I was exhausted and sick. Picking her up made me nauseous and I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I cried more during this time feeling SO BAD for my little baby. Why am I doing this to her?
Once we saw the doctor at the beginning of May however, things started to look up. I was put on medication for my nausea and she explained what would happen with my work situation. It made me feel better overall but I still have good days and bad.
On the good days I can’t wait to see my babies grow up and be the best of friends! I can’t wait to see the love they have for each other, and experience the love I’ll have for both of them. On the bad, I get really nervous and just want to cuddle Nora (even if she doesn’t want to) and freeze the time just for a little longer.
We have 5 more months to prepare for this new life, and as much as I like to think about it, I need to give Nora all that she deserves and that means being present in real time. Little babe finally has a tooth breaking through, so I’ve decided to stop complaining and carry her around as much as she wants to be. She can be spoiled for the next few months right?
We talk about her new sibling often, and I’m doing research on how we can better prepare her being only just a baby herself. I know she’s going to be a great big sister, but I’m not ready for her to grow up so fast yet either! This thing called pregnancy is going to be more of a rollercoaster ride of emotions than the first time around…
So welcome Baby B! (B works for the name we’re thinking of, and also A for first and B for second? Haha)
At 14 weeks Baby B is the size of a peach, can make facial expressions and can suck their thumb! I know it wasn’t that long ago where we were doing this with baby Nora but I must say it’s just as exciting the second time around.
Any advice for this soon-to-be second time momma?