I feel like every time I look at my almost 6 week old, she looks and is doing something different. Her features and the colour of her hair are changing drastically. She is also getting so smart! She has started reaching, grasping and pulling on things. She has started making more noises and will engage in a conversation. It is amazing to see how fast they pick up new skills every day. With this however, her sleeping patterns are also developing.
From the start, we have had a very easy to get to sleep baby. This past week or so has not been the case. She has been very restless and will only sleep in small increments during the day which results in a very overtired baby by bedtime. It is a struggle to get her down every time. Unfortunately, this has led to new feelings for this new momma as well.
For the first time in almost six weeks, I found myself getting frustrated. My baby hasn’t quite learnt how to keep a suce in her mouth but she asks for it when she wants to sleep. This means I have to get up multiple times during the night to pop it back in her mouth. It broke my heart the first time I used a different tone and told her to keep it in…she can’t control that the poor thing…I have been doing some research on how to help her and we might have to try a different kind or ride it out until about 3 months. We got this.
This week I have also gotten frustrated towards my fiancé. He has been gone a lot for the past couple of weeks working hard on our new house, which I appreciate of course, but it makes me feel like I am raising this baby alone. I understand the house is important but this is also a crucial time in our baby’s life. He was home for the first time in awhile last night, and he just seemed to want to upset me the entire time. I know it bothers him that he can’t soothe the baby like I can and he keeps throwing it in my face. But on the other hand, when I tell him what to do with her, he doesn’t listen. It’s almost as if he is resenting me for the bond that I have with our child.
He has more paternity leave coming up, and I’m hoping, so hoping, that he will put in a little more effort into bonding with our daughter. I asked him to hold her while I took a shower last night, and by the time I got out, he had placed her on our bed? If that was me, I wouldn’t want to put her down! I am really struggling to understand where he is coming from as a new father, but maybe he is just tired too. It’s so funny to think just a couple weeks ago we had giggled at the thought of a baby changing our relationship, and now look where we’ve ended up.
They don’t lie when they say parenting is a team effort and that you have to put more effort into being a couple than a mother and father. I hope I am being over dramatic from the lack of sleep and rollercoaster of emotions and that things will get better soon. I definitely need to start taking more naps.
Any tips for this frustrated momma? Staying focused on the outcome isn’t as easy as it sounds!